Hey Everyone,

It's been awhile . . . I suppose I've been sort of busy lately. But Holly tagged me, and I figured I'd better say something about it. So here we go . .

Honestly, I don't need eight days to tell you what makes me happy. I can put it all in one post, and I think that that is what I am going to do, just so that i can spare anyone who bothers to read the repetition.

This year has been sort of long for me, what with everyone being so busy, including myself. I've been sort of stressed out and there are some mornings where I would rather stay in bed and sleep. We all have days like that. But every morning I push off the blankets and look up at the pictures I have above my bed and I smile. Every morning those pictures remind me that no matter what, there's always a tomorrow, and everything is going to be okay, so I just have to keep going and be patient.

When I get to school, I know that if I wait long enough, I'm going to have arms wrapped around my waist and when I turn around I'll get a good morning hug and kiss from Kolbe, and that will get me through the rest of the day. His smiles make me happy, and the fact that he tries so hard to do the same for me is all that I could ever ask for, even when he isn't successful. I love knowing that he wants me to be happy.

Every day I get to see Holly and Amy in third period, and I get a hug. I love sitting in English and listening to Ms. T talk about whatever we're reading, and the intelligent conversation that she sparks. It's refreshing and it makes me laugh.

Even when I'm lonely at lunch, I know that soon enough I can go home to my family and relax. I know eventually Kolbe will be back to hug me and tell me about his day.

I love going to fencing. It feels wonderful to be exercising and talking to my friends. John-Marc and Nick never fail to make me smile, and Sean is pretty good at brightening up the mood. I know that every time I walk out of the gym that Ricardo will be smiling at me when I come back in. Haley always hugs me, and Megan is too sweet.

I know everyone is busy, and sometimes I feel that I'm in the way, but I also know that that isn't true, and no matter how hard everyone's day is, there is always a place for me somewhere in their heart. I know junior year is rough, and though Kolbe is busy and tired, he still manages to smile and hold on to me when I look sad, and I think what makes me happiest of all is knowing that he loves me, and how much I love him.

Maybe I don't need a lot of different things to make me happy. I have a wonderful family, amazing friends, and the best boyfriend and best friend. I'm a lucky girl to have to much to look forward to each day. They are my reason to get up in the morning.

Thank you for making all the difference :D

~Kasia

Fernando ^^

It's Been Awhile Since I Posted Anything . .

Things Are Going Well. My Dad Feels Much Better . . . White Stag Started Again . . . I've Been Spending Time With Kolbe.

Everything Is Good ^^

I Hope This Will Be A Wonderful Year.

College Aps First . . .

Oh Dear . . .





~Kasia

Can you hear the drums fernando?
I remember long ago another starry night like this
In the firelight fernando
You were humming to yourself and softly strumming your guitar
I could hear the distant drums
And sounds of bugle calls were coming from afar

They were closer now fernando
Every hour every minute seemed to last eternally
I was so afraid fernando
We were young and full of life and none of us prepared to die
And Im not ashamed to say
The roar of guns and cannons almost made me cry

There was something in the air that night
The stars were bright, fernando
They were shining there for you and me
For liberty, fernando
Though I never thought that we could lose
Theres no regret
If I had to do the same again
I would, my friend, fernando

Now were old and grey fernando
And since many years I havent seen a rifle in your hand
Can you hear the drums fernando?
Do you still recall the frightful night we crossed the rio grande?
I can see it in your eyes
How proud you were to fight for freedom in this land

There was something in the air that night
The stars were bright, fernando
They were shining there for you and me
For liberty, fernando
Though I never thought that we could lose
Theres no regret
If I had to do the same again
I would, my friend, fernando

There was something in the air that night
The stars were bright, fernando
They were shining there for you and me
For liberty, fernando
Though I never thought that we could lose
Theres no regret
If I had to do the same again
I would, my friend, fernando
Yes, if I had to do the same again
I would, my friend, fernando...

August 29th, 2007

I Will Always Remember That Day



I Love Him ^^



~Kasia

He works hard
To give her all
He thinks she wants
A three car garage,
Her own credit cards
He pulls in late
To wake her up
With a kiss
Good night
If he could only
Read her mind,
She'd say:

Buy me a rose,
Call me from work
Open a door for me,
What would it hurt
Show me you love me
By the look in your eyes
These are the little things
I need^The most in my life

Now the days have grown
To years
Of feeling
All alone
And she can't help
But wonder what
She's doing wrong
Cause lately she'd
Try anything
To turn his head
Would it make a difference
If she'd said:

Buy me a rose,
Call me from work
Open a door for me,
What would it hurt
Show me you love me
By the look in your eyes
These are the little things
I need
The most in my life

And the more that he lives
The less that he tries
To show her the love
That he holds inside
And the more that she gives
The more that he sees
This is a story
Of you
And me

So I bought you a rose
On the way home
From work
To open the door
To a heart
That I hurt
And I hope you notice '
This look in my eyes
Cause I'm gonna make
Things right
For the rest of your life
(Rest of your life)
And I'm gonna
Hold you tonight
Do all those
Little things
For the rest
Of your life

I have often dreamed, of a far off place

Where a hero’s welcome, would be waiting for me

Where the crowds will cheer, when they see my face

And a voice keeps saying, this is where I’m meant to be

I’ll be there someday, I can go the distance

I will find my way, if I can be strong

I know ev’ry mile, will be worth my while

When I go the distance, I’ll be right where I belong

Down an unknown road, to embrace my fate

Though that road may wander, it will lead me to you

And a thousand years, would be worth the wait

It might take a lifetime, but somehow I’ll see it through

And I won’t look back, I can go the distance

And I’ll stay on track, no, I won’t accept defeat

It’s an uphill slope, but I won’t lose hope

Till I go the distance, and my journey is complete

But to look beyond the glory is the hardest part

For a hero’s strength is measured by his heart

Like a shooting star, I will go the distance

I will search the world, I will face its’ harms

I don’t care how far, I can go the distance

Till I find my hero’s welcome, waiting in your arms

I will search the world, I will face it’s harms

Till I find my hero’s welcome, waiting in your arms



~Kasia

Hey ^^

Just wanted to let you know I'm home. Camp was fun. I had seven great kids, even if they did drive me completely insane. Aren't they amazing that way?

Girl Scout Camp Was Fun As Well.




If You Want To See WS Pictures I Put Them Up On Photobucket. Look up WhiteStag2008 And look at their album.

I missed you all . . . ^^

Love

~Kasia

White Stag Starts On Sunday . . . So I'm Leaving Sometime Today ^^ If You Need Me LEave A Message On My Cell Phone And I'll Call You Back Next Sunday.

After White Stag Is Girl Scout Jamboree Camp . . . So I'll Be Home After That.

Talk To You All In Two Weeks!

~Kasia

The sign in the window said for sale or trade
On the last remaining dinosaur detroit made
Seven hundred dollars was a heck of a deal
For a four hundred horsepower jukebox on wheels

And that road rolls out like a welcome mat
I dont know where it goes but it beats where were at
We always said someday, somehow
We were gonna get away, gonna blow this town

What about now, how bout tonight
Baby for once lets dont think twice
Lets take that spin that never ends
That weve been talking about
What about now, why should we wait
We can chase these dreams down the interstate
And be long gone fore the world moves on and makes another round
What about now

Weve been puttin this off baby long enough
Just give me the word, and well be kickin up dust
We both know its just a matter of time
til our hearts start racin for that county line

What about now, how bout tonight
Baby for once lets dont think twice
Lets take that spin that never ends
That weve been talking about
What about now, why should we wait
We can chase these dreams down the interstate
And be long gone fore the world moves on and makes another round
What about now

We could hang around this town forever making plans
But there wont ever be a better time to take this chance

What about now, how bout tonight
Baby for once lets dont think twice
Lets take that spin that never ends
That weve been talking about
What about now, why should we wait
We can chase these dreams down the interstate
And be long gone fore the world moves on and makes another round
What about now

What about now

Desperado, why dont you come to your senses?
You been out ridin fences for so long now
Oh, youre a hard one
I know that you got your reasons
These things that are pleasin you
Can hurt you somehow

Don you draw the queen of diamonds, boy
Shell beat you if shes able
You know the queen of heats is always your best bet

Now it seems to me, some fine things
Have been laid upon your table
But you only want the ones that you cant get

Desperado, oh, you aint gettin no youger
Your pain and your hunger, theyre drivin you home
And freedom, oh freedom well, thats just some people talkin
Your prison is walking through this world all alone

Dont your feet get cold in the winter time?
The sky wont snow and the sun wont shine
Its hard to tell the night time from the day
Youre loosin all your highs and lows
Aint it funny how the feeling goes away?

Desperado, why dont you come to your senses?
Come down from your fences, open the gate
It may be rainin, but theres a rainbow above you
You better let somebody love you, before its too late

Alright, So Here's What's Going On For The Next Few Months:




-Finishing Finals

-Shasta With Kolbe From The 21st To The 28th

-White Stag From July 3rd To July 13th

-Girl Scout Jamboree From June 13th To July 20th

-Apply For A Job

-Driving Test

-Get The House Ready For Dad's Surgery



I Don't Know When That Is, But It Should Be Sometime In July or August.

[I Do Not Want Anybody To Worry Or To Ask Me If They Can Help. It Will Be Fine. I Just Want To Let You Know What's Going On.]

They Are Going To Give Him Chemo Therapy And Then They Are Going To Remove And Freeze Some Of His Blood. The Chemo Will Almost Completely Kill His Immune System, But He Will Not Have To Stay In The Hospital For A Long Period Of Time. They Are Going To Clean His Bone Marrow And Then Put The Frozen Blood Back. This Should Cure The Cancer.

We Are Going To Have To Keep Our House Just About Completely Sterilized. Sammie Will Not Be Here For A Month. If You Are Sick I Need You To Tell Me Because I Cannot Catch It. I'm Really Sorry, I'm Not Trying To Be Rude.

If Anybody Has Any QUestions ABout It, Please Ask Me, But Don't Worry.

Thanks



One More Week, Hang In There Dears ^^







~Kasia

I can hear you downstairs crying on the phone
Telling someone that I'm here but you still feel all alone
Maybe we were too young
Goodbye, I've gotta go
I can hear the baby waking up
Got to get back to the life I know

I should have never believed him
Maybe I should just leave him

Maybe I'm not but you're all I got left to believe in
Don't give up on me
I'm about to come alive
And I know that it's been hard
And it's been a long time coming
Don't give up on me
I'm about to come alive

No one thought I was good enough for you
Except for you
Don't let them be right
After all that we've been through
'Cause somewhere over that rainbow
There's a place for me
A place with you

In every frame upon our wall
Lies a face that's seen it all
Through ups and downs and then more downs
We helped each other off of the ground
No one knows what we've been through
Making it ain't making it without you

Show me a better bike than the one I got
If it makes any difference you can keep the lot
There's plenty of space in the parking lot

A head full of hopes
A pocket full of dreams
Handle bars coming apart at the seams

There goes Johnny America
Riding Hard up Mission Hill
Some think he'll make it to the top today
Some say he never will
Though he's just a child at heart
He's old enough to fall
Nobody in 100 years
Can touch him faults and all...

What you going to say about my little man
Take another shot, do the best you can
They're selling out souls in the grandstand

His Cap peeled back
Got Blood on his knees
Fighting back tears
Tearing through the breeze

There goes Johnny America
Riding Hard up Mission Hill
Some think he'll make it to the top today
Some say he never will
Though he's just a child at heart
He's old enough to fall
Nobody in 100 years
Can touch him faults and all...

He's come to far to fall

There goes Johnny America
Riding Hard up Mission Hill
Some think he'll make it to the top today
Some say he never will...

GO!
Go Johnny!
Go Johnny!

There goes Johnny America
Riding Hard up Mission Hill
Some think he'll make it to the top today
I say he will.

Could you whisper in my ear
The things you wanna feel
I'd give you anythin'
To feel it comin'

Do you wake up on your own
And wonder where you are?
You live with all your faults

I wanna wake up where you are
I won't say anything at all
So why don't you slide

Yeah, I'm gonna let it slide

Don't you love the life you killed?
The priest is on the phone
Your father hit the wall
Your ma disowned you

Don't supposed I'll ever know
What it means to be a man
It's somethin' I can't change
I'll live around it

I wanna wake up where you are
I won't say anything at all
So why don't you slide
Ooh, slide

And I'll do anythin' you ever dreamed to be complete
Little pieces of the nothin' that fall
Oh, May
Put your arms around me
What you feel is what you are
And what you are is beautiful
Oh, May
Do you wanna get married Or run away?

And I'll do anythin' you ever dreamed to be complete
Little pieces of the nothin' that fall
Oh, May
Put your arms around me
What you feel is what you are
And what you are is beautiful
Oh, May
Do you wanna get married
Or run away?

I wanna wake up where you are
I won't say anything

And I'll do anythin' you ever dreamed to be complete
(Yeah, slide)
Little pieces of the nothin' that fall
(yeah slide)
And I'll do anythin' you ever dreamed to be complete
(Yeah slide)
Little pieces of the nothin' that fall
(Oh, oh slide)
Yeah, slide between the sheets of all them beds you never knew
(Yeah slide)
Why don't you slide into my room
Just slide into my room
Oh, we'll run away, run away, run away

She loves her mama's lemonade,
Hates the sound that goodbyes make.
She prays one day she'll find someone to need her.
She swears that there's no difference,
Between the lies and compliments.
It's all the same if everybody leaves her.

And every magazine tells her she's not good enough,
The pictures that she sees make her cry.

And she would change everything, everything just ask her.
Caught in the in between, a beautiful disaster,
And she just needs someone to take her home.

She's giving boys what they want, tries to act so nonchalant,
Afraid they'll see that she's lost her direction.
She never stays the same for long,
Assuming that she'll get it wrong.
Perfect only in her imperfection.

She's not a drama queen,
She doesn't want to feel this way, only seventeen but tired

She would change everything for happy ever after.
Caught in the in between, a beautiful disaster,
But she just needs someone to take her home.

Cuz she's just the way she is, but no ones told her that's ok.

And she would change everything, everything just ask her.
Caught in the in between of beautiful disaster,

And she would change everything for happy ever after.
Caught in the in between of beautiful disaster,

But she just needs someone to take her home
And she just needs someone to take her home.

She loves her mama's lemonade,
Hates the sound that goodbyes make.
She prays one day she'll find someone to need her.
She swears that there's no difference,
Between the lies and compliments.
It's all the same if everybody leaves her.

And every magazine tells her she's not good enough,
The pictures that she sees make her cry.

And she would change everything, everything just ask her.
Caught in the in between, a beautiful disaster,
And she just needs someone to take her home.

She's giving boys what they want, tries to act so nonchalant,
Afraid they'll see that she's lost her direction.
She never stays the same for long,
Assuming that she'll get it wrong.
Perfect only in her imperfection.

She's not a drama queen,
She doesn't want to feel this way, only seventeen but tired

She would change everything for happy ever after.
Caught in the in between, a beautiful disaster,
But she just needs someone to take her home.

Cuz she's just the way she is, but no ones told her that's ok.

And she would change everything, everything just ask her.
Caught in the in between of beautiful disaster,

And she would change everything for happy ever after.
Caught in the in between of beautiful disaster,

But she just needs someone to take her home
And she just needs someone to take her home.

Sometimes late at night
I lie awake and watch her sleeping
Shes lost in peaceful dreams
So I turn out the lights and lay there in the dark
And the thought crosses my mind
If I never wake up in the morning
Would she ever doubt the way I feel
About her in my heart

(chorus)

If tomorrow never comes
Will she know how much I loved her
Did I try in every way to show her every day
That shes my only one
And if my time on earth were through
And she must face the world without me
Is the love I gave her in the past
Gonna be enough to last
If tomorrow never comes
cause Ive lost loved ones in my life
Who never knew how much I loved them
Now I live with the regret
That my true feelings for them never were revealed
So I made a promise to myself
To say each day how much she means to me
And avoid that circumstance
Where theres no second chance to tell her how I feel

*chorus*

So tell that someone that you love
Just what youre thinking of
If tomorrow never comes

I got rice cooking in the microwave
Got a three day beard I don't plan to shave
And it's a goofy thing but I just gotta say
Hey I'm doing alright

Yeah I think I'll make me some homemade soup
Feelin pretty good and that's the truth
It's neither drink nor drug induced
No I'm just doin alright

And it's a great day to be alive
I know the sun's still shinin when I close my eyes
There's some hard times in the neigborhood
But why can't every day be just this good?

It's been fifteen years since I left home
Said good luck to every seed I'd sown
Give it my best and then I left it alone
Oh...I hope their doin alright

Now I look in the mirror and what do I see?
A lone wolf there starin back at me
Long in the tooth but harmless as can be
Lord I guess he's doin alright

And it's a great day to be alive
I know the sun's still shinin when I close my eyes
There's some hard times in the neigborhood
But why can't every day be just this good?

Sometimes it's lonely
Sometimes it's only me
And the shadows that fill this room
Sometimes I'm fallin
Desperately callin
Howlin at the moon...
Ahwoo!
Ahwoo!

Well I might go get me a new tattoo
Or take my old Harley for a three day cruise
Might even grow me a Fu Man Chu...
Oh Aww!

And it's a great day to be alive
I know the sun's still shinin when I close my eyes
There's some hard times in the neigborhood
But why can't every day be just this good?

And it's a great day to be alive
I know the sun's still shinin when I close my eyes
There's some hard times in the neigborhood
But why can't every day be just this good?

Picture yourself in a boat on a river,
With tangerine trees and marmalade skies
Somebody calls you, you answer quite slowly,
A girl with kaleidoscope eyes.

Cellophane flowers of yellow and green,
Towering over your head.
Look for the girl with the sun in her eyes,
And she's gone.

Lucy in the sky with diamonds
Lucy in the sky with diamonds
Lucy in the sky with diamonds
Ah... Ah...

Follow her down to a bridge by a fountain
Where rocking horse people eat marshmallow pies,
Everyone smiles as you drift past the flowers,
That grow so incredibly high.
Newspaper taxis appear on the shore,
Waiting to take you away.
Climb in the back with your head in the clouds,
And you're gone.


Picture yourself on a train in a station,
With plasticine porters with looking glass ties,
Suddenly someone is there at the turnstile,
The girl with kaleidoscope eyes.